| it hurts to want everytnign and nothing at the same time... |
[25 Oct 2004|09:35pm] |
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IM UPDATING! *gasp* i forgot i had an lj. but then i remembered
oook sooo. i went out with don for a while almost a month actually. it was different ive never gone out with my best friend before. i would comment about that. but im not going to because im smarter than that noww. well were noit going out anymore. thats the way it goes.
i sprained my ankle which is gay bc now im out for halloween and cant go anywhere. but im going to anyways. ive been on crutches for a bit but it almost hurts more with crutches and i have this gay faggy air cast which makes me look oh so hot if i do say so myselfff
so lately theres been all this drama and bs that people makeup bc they feel they need to screw up my life more and torment me? thats sad that other peoples lives are so pathetic they make up stuff about mine. but whatever idc people can say what they want bc as long as i know its not true thats fine...it would help if opther thouhgt it wasnt true also but hey
eruite well im tired ill update more on my ever so exciting life later. although nobody reads this.
MY BELT BROKE! I LOST MY INSANELY AMAZING GOAL GLOVES! MY JEANS ARE STAINED! this week blows. <3
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| its not easy tonight.... |
[11 Oct 2004|10:19pm] |
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dude. i hanvet updated in foreverrrrrrr
i just came back from boston today
we satin traffic for 6 hours
im tired and have lots of hw
i missed homecoming
i spent $300 dollars on clothes :)
i had a weird dream
I HATE SCHOOOOOOOOOOOOOL
my cellphone broke
my brithdays in december weee *cough*presents*cough*
lalalala i need to go try and make myself pretty for tomorrow. which is so not going to happen. i hate how all my best friends are like supermodels.
grasshopper.jackalack.bauer.ker.tay.twinnies.genis.brightlights.lamplface.morgana.ashleeeeee.kristen.mary.heather. lalala. youre all pretty and should die. thank you have a ncie day
comment :)
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dude. i hanvet updated in foreverrrrrrr
i just came back from boston today
we satin traffic for 6 hours
im tired and have lots of hw
i missed homecoming
i spent $300 dollars on clothes :)
i had a weird dream
I HATE SCHOOOOOOOOOOOOOL
my cellphone broke
my brithdays in december weee *cough*presents*cough*
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| youd think id learn over these years good things dont last forever... |
[26 Sep 2004|09:50pm] |
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OMG!my brand new earring broke. i didnt get the poncho i wanted. and i lost my binder. but i hotglued my earring., i was like crying. ok.
so i went to the city today. saw rent. who knew it was all about aids and sex and drugs and dying. but it was good...nto nearly as good as wicked htough. DREW LACHEY WAS IN IT! nicks so much hotter. and can sing better too. BUT FRENCHIE DAVIS WAS IN IT! you know the one that got kicked off american idol? thge fat one? well shes realllllllllllllly good. then i went to little italy with the fammmm and got caught in a festival and was like massively chlostrophobic.
so we finalyl had our first school game. we won surprisingly. we have anothe thsi week. and i decided im going into psychiatricism or something liek that since i predict the future (ask monica greg or jackie they will verify for you) and i decided i wont write anything about my love life bvecause SOME PEOPLE TAKE IT THE WRONG WAY! haha. just kidding. k now i gotta loo kfor my binder. and listen to more music. <3
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| and i will not hide anymore.... |
[21 Sep 2004|08:03pm] |
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whoop whoop. im overly ADD right now. monicas making fun of my live journal entries. SCRE WYOU! heh. i loveyou. most of the time... just kidding :)
k sooooooo. im not confused. and im happy. word. i wanna be like mandym oore shes so pretyt i just watched how to deal and i was like AHHHHH youre like perfect. omg i love her song only hope. but thats in a walk to remember. right.
so hs sucks balls. bc theres wayyyyyyy too much hw and my teachers are gay. we were supposed to have our fisrt game today for soccer but it got cancelled .boogers i was so pumped!!
k monica got me hooked on starting line. and i got alex and ker into it. i want dashboard confessional to come up with new stuff i always liked them. hmm yellowcard. mathbook romance is pretty good (props to taylor) lala.
haha. i jsut read this entry and laughed my ass off. omg it reminds me of lunch! AHAHAH WHEN SOMEONE WAS AHHHHHHHHH! god that was hysterical.
mary and heather are helping me find someone :) i love them. almost as much as i love jackie! my bffeaeaeaeaeaeaeaeaeaeee weeeee. im hanging out with them this weekend and were going streakingggggg haha that reminds me of old school. which reminds me of kerrys. which reminds me of...
ok ill stop. WAS THAT INTERESTING ENOUGH FOR YOU MONICA?!?!?! and were good. <3
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| but i hope youll never feel unwanted... |
[20 Sep 2004|08:26pm] |
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im confused. and everyones mad i dont know what i want. and im mad i dont know what iwant. and i feel mean. k im good
comment. even though nobody reads this anymore. and im basically writing to myself. whateverrr
<3
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| breakaway... |
[10 Sep 2004|10:33pm] |
wow. today stunk. im in such a terrible mood right now i cant even explain. well the soccer party was fun. we all hung out pretended to listen to charlie and pauls "pep talk" and then just talked. I LOVE ERICA AND ALLIE AND MORGAN AND god...i love you all.
k so school definately isnt as fun as i thought itd be. i thought itd be insane parties hot guys the works. its boring actually. so i was dissappointed there. soccers no fun our coach is mean...but its cool being with my friends all the time
people dissappoint me. i really dont know who they are anymore its so hard to know who to trust. everyones always talking about everyone else. especially tonight. oh well. i give uppp <3
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| here i go scream my lungs out and try to get to you... |
[07 Sep 2004|08:39am] |
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It's weird. highschools tomorrow and i dont feel any different. at all. everyones like OMG IM SO EXCITED. but i'm scared idk i'llgeet over it
soo soccer tryouts are over everyone made a team im on freshman hwich is cool becausei m with all my friends and well probably get a lot of laying timee our coach is so nasty though shes like im a big fan of conditioning...so go run for 15 minutes shes asjdhalkjsdh
the other night i went to rubys with danielle and don ad it was sooooooo awkward. but heyy that s alrite. greg and i decided its lonely month. originally it was every0one have someone month and we just didnt get hte memo...so we made it lonely month so anywhoooooo i would say who i like..then i realizezd this is a live journal. bahaha. not that anyne really reads it anyways lol
so yesterday jill lampl and i went through the hs with jenica her sis. turns out...we set off all the alarms and the cops were comng and everything. we didnt know that though how were we supposed to know we werent supposed to be there?! the door was open...
today im suppoesd to gho to the movies with the lovebirds...fun right?! heh thats it <3
...you are my only
my only one....
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| some people want it all... |
[29 Aug 2004|02:16pm] |
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O TO THE M TO THE G! ok. so i havent updated in like 2348029834 years but thats ok. right now im at the love of my lifes house...who else... DANIELLE ROSE BRIGHT! duh. geez..i hacent been here in what..four days? we are waiting for don and dan cassella to come here :)
k so. IM SO SCARED!! soccer tryouts are tomorrow. omg. im gonna like die. i hear they run you soooooooooooooo much and im not really in shape like i used to be. so im nervous. 4 HOURS OF SOCCER A DAY! that is insane.
well not much else has happened really. i went to the beach the other day with taylor and got my haircut for school 8o)yay. im nervous for hs. but EXTREMELY nervous for soccer .i think everyone is though even people that shouldnt be scared are but whatever ill just try my best and hopefully not pass out.
thats about it for now...<3
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[19 Aug 2004|11:04pm] |
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thank you to greg 4 making this 4 me....i love u
P.S. -He did not write this entry!!!
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| breakaway...... |
[13 Aug 2004|06:11pm] |
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k havent updated in liek 29348-9234 years but thats bc i can stil only go on the padres computer. lets seeeee
welllllllllll. i talked to matt for the first time in like 2134897 years since we broke up. he seems happy which is cool. supposedly like 1238 girls like him in camp or whatever.
soooooooo i went to ginas the other day with a buncha people. that wasfun. THEY MADE ME WATCH A SCARY MOVIE!! *gasp* but i left before the end so its all good :)
soo camps ok. this kid keeps trying to get me and gina to have a threesome with him. i feel bad.
OMG has anyone heard breakaway or white houses? if you havent. you are a lsot soul AHH I LOVE THEM. yeah weeeeeeee and btw i hate aol. its just soo annoying.
soccers ben hell. but fun. i love everyoneee sooooo much. theyre all ike my biffs. i was thinking about who my friends are the other day. whos truly there for me and who i just have amazing times with its so weird.
anywhoo im pretty happy. nothign that interesting since el hamptons. supposedly kers cuz likes me now idk whatevs. so now im just like looking for something. but im not exactly sure what if that makes sense. i just want to have fun now for the past year or so its been all drama and thats quite stressful. so now i just wanna have fun with people. cept thats not like poissible anywhoo thats all for now <3
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wow. havent updated in like a year. SO much has happened. i can only go on my dads comp for one hour a day :/. This is lke torture!
yeah so im about to go to ginas soon. we have soccer and crap today. idk how much longer i can play bc of my leg but for now i just do as much as i can.
k so last weeknd i went to the ha,mptons with ker and to make a long story short...w e did a shot.. got caught so thats y im in trouble but its not biggie it was one shot. i madeout with this kid there but he was like mauling me ajsdhlkajsdh then i got dared to h.u with kers cousin so i snuck out on the porch and did. AND I SAW MY FIRST SCARY MOVIE! bahaha. i was so proud. cept they all scared me all night :9. they came on our porch and snuck up on me. gr. WE WENT ON JET SKIS! and taylor like ran me over but yeah its all god. we sunk kers jet ski. that weasfunny. we got in trouble. so yeah thats about all for now. im running out so ill update later. not that anybody reads this nor comments.
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| but every touch felt cold to me... |
[29 Jul 2004|04:30pm] |
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about to go to the hamptons with ker. yayyy so excited. i just want to forget everythign and everyone for like one weekend. kers trying to get me to makeout with this kid. ehh idk. everythings so messed up and it totally sucks. so im SOO excited to just leave for a weekend.
dad got surgery today. hes home. but itsj ust weird. i hate hospitols.
people are annoying me. i had an amazingly long talk with jackie last nihgt. i was so overreacting but she listened. she just let me cry and be totally ridiculous. thats why i love her :)
k well not much else to say really. idk when ill be back either saturday or sunday. not that anybody reads this nor cares. but hey. so yea. UGH PEOPLE ANNOY MEEEEE. sometimes i just wanna kill someone... but then the next day i think id die without them. now THATS annoying. phsh. i wish we were all bugs. riiiiight jackie? heh love yaa.
dk whatll happen when i get back. should be interesante. baha. thats all for nowwwww </3
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| so quit your life and stay with me... |
[28 Jul 2004|09:40pm] |
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hm. so today i was sickish. and mydads getting surgery tomorrow. and im like blah. and nobody like sme. and i feel ugly. and i hate how all my best friends are amazingly gorgeous and i look like a toad nextr to them. hmph. im lonelyish. <3
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| APPLE PIEEEEEE |
[26 Jul 2004|07:24pm] |
well since everyone has this i want people to take it about me... see how well you all do know me. bahaha.
1. My name?
2. Where did we meet?
3. What's my middle name?
4. How long have you known me?
5. How well do you know me?
6. Have you ever had a crush on me?
7. When you first saw me what was your 1st impression?
8. My age?
9. Birthday?
10. Color hair?
11. Color eyes?
12. Do I have any siblings?
13. What's one of my favorite things to do?
14. Do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you?
15. What's my favorite type of music?
16. What is the best feature about me?
17. Am I shy or outgoing?
18. Would you say I am funny?
19. Would you consider me a friend?
20. Have you ever seen me cry?
21. If there were one good nickname for me what would it be?
22. What songs make you think of me?
23. What's the worst feature about me?
24. What lyrics best describe me?
25. Would you consider me a best friend?
26. What's my favorite sport?
thank you that will be all <3
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| im not alone.... |
[24 Jul 2004|03:28pm] |
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k now im like sad. but i odnt really feel like going into detail why and im sure nobody really cares to hear either. so ill just talk about what i did yesterday and shit.
k so yesterday i skipped camp bc im scandalous like that. i went to jills house for a bit. then we ran and ran and rannnnnnn for soccer in the pouring rain. we didnt even do soccer. just run. then i went back to jills got ready and went to abees with allie jackie n jill then back to jackies house. allie andi made them get DIRTY DANCING 2! cept jackie and jill wouldnt shutup and totally ruined the movie by asking a question every 20 seconds. *sigh* but we did establish the foxy four.. and listen to ashlee simpson all night.
now im sitting here waiting for my family toget ready to go to the alagnas. we havent seen them in loike years. actually my parents just saw them wednesday but yeah. so now i got to thinking. but i wont say about bc everyone will belike JILL SHUTUP NOBODY CARES BWAHAHAHA so ill just keep it to myself... or wait till my jackie comes home tomorrowww :) thats about it.... <3
*btw everybody must listen to the punchline song omg its amazinggggg
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| so please dont go away... |
[22 Jul 2004|08:50pm] |
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wooo. ok so havent updated in.. idk. i dont remember. k so yeah i went to bronx zoo yesterday w/ camp. that was gay. the bus ride was fun. i kept taking pics iwth ginas camera. then on the way back i sat with michael ragusoooo.. cool kid. haha. yeah so we talked for the whole time. which was cool. then yeah thats about it. oh wait... SOCCER! ew i like died. no joke. i puked. and then started shaking. that was fun.
k so today i went to splish splash with my aunt and her niece nephew and my mom and brother., then i got grounded there. that was such bs. and now while everyones at dons where im supposed to be... im stuck here... updating my lj. yeah. really pissed bout that.
now im like depressidish but not really. if that makes sense? and benci said my icon has ADD. not fair. and i miss my jackie sososoooo bad. i havent talked to her in like... two days! phsh thats not cool. yeah so now apparently im a sexy superwoman? right benc? bwahaha. yeah. cept im not. and shes arguing with me about me... and i usually win fights.. ESPECIALLY when they are about me. bc im always right. bc i know me best.. right?
yeah so im confused bout how i feel bout certain things but hey what else is new. ill live. im cool like that. thats about it for now. ill just go mourn about not being at dons with everyone :( <3
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| sometimes its hard to breathe... |
[20 Jul 2004|11:58pm] |
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I feel like sucha fool theres nothin i can do I'm such a fool for you...
hmm where to start. been kinda busy lately. lets see. i just got back from the outback. holy shit that was fucking amazingggg. kk well one of my dads 328978203947 softball teams is the over 40 team. thats the only one i like and go to the games bc everyones dads on it so theres liek a million kids. today there wasnt that many but me gina n jill went and joe mike billy and some lil kids were there. we played a serious game of manhunt. then after one of the guys on the team owns the outback so he called the place and told them to open it for us and we all went in. then all the kids went outside... raced around in shopping carts... and ran through the sprinklers by the bank. i was then accused of liking mike.. who i seriously no joke thought was gay lol. im dead serious. and once i said it everyones like OMG IS HE?! so that was a debate. anyways now im all hyper from running around. i feel like going to... steal something or get drunk or idk
camps ok. the kids are getting annoying i dont need them hanging on me every 5 seconds. and they keep touching my boobs im like DUDE LAY OFF! but they dont really get it.
yeah. i made an uh oh. cept not many people know what it is. and ive been trying to tell don for like 4 days but hes being retarded and we keep playing phone tag. haha. phone tag. yeah im cool. so tomorrow i think im goin to kers then thursday nights is dons i think idk well see. kk thats bout it for now im too lazy to remember the rest of what i wanted to write. ill write tomorrow. <3
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| are you happy now... |
[18 Jul 2004|09:32pm] |
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yeah im doing this quiz that i stole from nicole
About you:
[Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time?]: hmm. i guess so.
[What is your favorite part of your physical appearance?]: do i have to answer? well if i do id say my eyes... even though they are kinda boring
[Whats your favorite part of your emotional being?]: i dont get it
[Are you happy with you?]: sorta
[Are you happy with your life?]: yup. for the most part. its not like im living on the streets or anything
[Spell your first name backwards]: naillij
[How old?]: 14
[Where do you live?]: neverneverland
DESCRIBE:
[The story behind your user name]: i was into the song at the time
[Your Wallet]: its kinda thin right now
[Jewelry worn daily]: this cute anklet i just got. and this like woven necklace thing i got in maine
[Your Shoes]: i have a lot. which ones?
[Your Handbag]: yay i just got one yesterday. i have an obsession. god knows how many i have...
[Your Favorite top]:theres too many. some shirts i find and didnt even know i had
[Your Piercings]: just one hole. i might get my cartlidge or my seconds though im not sure which one
[What you are wearing now]:a white sports tank and my foldover black capris
[YourMakeup]: none
[Some of your favorite movies]: Wedding Singer, mm save the last dance, how to deal, its a wonderful life... theres a lot but i dont remember
[Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming months]: nothign really.
[what you are Wishing for]: things that i can never get
[Something that you are deathly afraid of?]: bugs
[some of your favorite pig out foods?]:candy
[something you wish you could understand better?]: a lotta thigns
What is..:
[In my mouth]: my teeth?
[In my head]: that michelle branch song
[Talking to]: well i was talking to jackie 5 secs ago
[Eating]: nothing.. i kinda want icecream but i dont want to eat it really if that makes sense
[The last thing you ate?]: a burger and mac n cheese
In the last 24 hours, have you:
[Cried?]: noo
[Bought something?]:ya huh. starbucks, tomatoees and a movie ticket
[Gotten sick]: no
[Sang?]: ya huh
[Eaten?]: didnt i jsut answer that?
[been kissed?]: no
[Felt stupid?]: not particularly... actuall ywhen i was dancing around morgans room with her red tank on my head and they were all tyelling some kid i liked him..
[told someone you loved them, but didn't?]: no
[Met someone new?]: this is all in 24 hours?!
[Moved on?]: no
[Talked to an ex?]:yes
[Missed an ex?]: these are a lotta questions
[Talked to someone you have a crush on?]: yes
[Had a serious talk?]: yes
[Hugged someone?]: umm..hmm. no i dont think so
[Fought with your parents?]: phsh yes
[Dreamed about someone you can't be with?]: urmm yeah i guess
Social Life:
[Boyfriend/Girlfriend?]: not anymoree
[What type automobile do you drive?]: none but its going to be a convertablee
[What type automobile do you wish you drove?]: see above
[Where is the best hangout?]: movies. kerrys house. idk anyplace really i guess
Who:
[Have you known the longest]: umm taylor n ker probably
[Do you argue the most with?]: no comemnt
[Is the most trustworthy?]: jackie
[Makes you laugh the most?]: liver, nina, ker
[Has been there through all the hard times?]: monica n jackie
[Has the coolest parents?]: hmm. idk
[Has the coolest siblings?]: hmm. jills sis is cool.
[Is the most blunt?]: blunt?! AHAH MR. BLUNT FROM TRACK.. yeah im good
[Is the smartest?]: allie jackie kim jill.. theyre all smart
[is your role model?]: idk never thought about it
Ever..:
[liked someone you had no chance with?]: hasnt everyone?
[cried over the opposite sex?]: yeah
[wanted to get revenge on someone because they hurt you?]: lalala. me? no... never :)
[liked your best guy/girl friend?]: see above
Would you rather..:
[be the dumper or dumped?]: theyre both bad. i would know.
[have a relationship or a "hookup"?]: BBJ all the wayyyy
[be with friends or on a date?]: idk. i think group dates are cooler. so you can do both at the same time.
Do you..:
[Want someone you don't have right now?]: *sigh*
[have a "type" of person you always go after?]: nope
[Want to get married?]: i guess
[want kids?]: see above
[believe in love]: sometimes...
[believe in soul mates]: see above
[believe in love at first sight]: yes
[believe in forgiveness]: depends
[have a pet]: i have 3 a dog and 2 kitties
[have a job?]: well im a cit right now...
[like being around people?]: for the most part
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| so much for my happy ending... |
[17 Jul 2004|09:37am] |
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man this is a good song. yeah im cool like that. well its 930 and im getting ready to go into the city. and since i didnt update last night and i have extra time now...
ok so first things first. matt and i arecool now. thank god. id really hate if we never talked or ignored eachother or had that whole awkward thing going on. hes really sweet and everything so i didnt want to lose him as a friend. so im happy bout that. and i hear him and mer have some sorta thing going on i thinkeroo. haha thinkeroo. ew. no. ok back on task
mmm lets see. nina has a penis. just incase anyone was wondering. sorry babes hadda do it. yeah so i miss everyone!! i mean dont get me wrong the summers fun.. but even SUMMER has drama i mean comeonnn cant we just go like a month without it? i shouldnt really complain since im not really involved in it but its annoying hearing about it all.
so now as i told... damnit i forgot who i wastalking to this about. oh right! monica! WHOS BACK...kinda? ehh w/e at least i can talk to her online. yeah soo i was saying how im gonna be one of those old ladies who goes crazy from being alone all her life and theyll be a special on me on 60 minutes or smoething. im so optomistic right? oh well.
yeah so for the past couple nights ive been talking to people who i didnt really think id talk to for a while and becoming closer with other people. i dont get it.
so now im into listening to either punk. or sad slow songs. dont ask. its one or the other. im also playing WAYY too much basketball for my owngood. but nbody gets that. i think i talked about why i played bball before but i doubt anyone remembers. ok so now i have to go pry my cats off of eachother and try not to get killed. mm fun. thats about it kinda sorta not really. <3
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